Kelly Clarkson is stepping back into her life after taking time to support her children in the death of their father, Kelly’s ex Brandon Blackstock.
But sources close to the O.G. American Idol say while Kelly is back on set filming “The Voice,” she’s quietly struggling with feelings of guilt.
The “Since U Been Gone” singer is apparently wondering if the stress of an oftentimes very contentious divorce hurt Blackstock’s ability to fight his cancer battle.
Brandon Blackstock died of melanoma after a three-year battle earlier this month. Neither Brandon nor Kelly knew about the cancer before they split.
“Kelly is aware of talk that stress can impact the body and make someone more susceptible to cancer,” a source told the Daily Mail.
“Although the timing could be purely coincidental, she knows how much tension the divorce and lawsuits put on them.”
The source emphasized that Kelly “doesn’t blame herself,” but admits she is “conscious that the double whammy of the divorce and the fact that he had to repay her millions of dollars was very tough on him.”
Another source confirmed Kelly’s struggle, but that source says the singer is trying not to dwell on “what ifs,” saying Kelly, “doesn’t want to harp on about what this might have done for Brandon’s health, but it does cross her mind. And it does make her think that maybe she could [have] done more, even though that is unrealistic at its core.”
Kelly Clarkson Returns to TV Nearly Two Weeks After Loss
Kelly Clarkson has stepped back into her role as a coach on season 29 of “The Voice” after sitting out the first few tapings to be with her children, 11-year-old River Rose and 9-year-old Remi.
According to Deadline, Kelly missed just one episode of shooting. Fellow “American Idol” alum Jennifer Hudson filled in for Kelly during a rehearsal for the battle rounds.
Reba McEntire, who is Blackstock’s former stepmother, also missed a few tapings of season 28 of “The Voice” in the week following Blackstock’s death according to the Sun.
Kelly Clarkson’s Special Debuts on NBC
The first episode of Kelly Clarkson’s four-part special, “Songs & Stories With Kelly Clarkson” aired as scheduled August 19.
The series was filmed before Blackstock’s death.
Episode one featured The Jonas Brothers.
The second episode of “Songs & Stories With Kelly Clarkson” airs Tuesday, August 26 on NBC.
It will feature songs and conversation with Cuban-American singing legend Gloria Estefan.
For the third episode on September 2, Kelly will help fans gets to know Grammy-nominated musician Teddy Swims.
Kelly Clarkson’s final episode of “Songs & Stories” will feature Lizzo.
You can catch all four episodes of “Songs & Stories With Kelly Clarkson” August 19, August 26, September 2 and September 9 on NBC at 10:00pm ET and streaming on Peacock.
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Kelly Clarkson Gets Support As She Reportedly Struggles With Guilt